My life right now is so streamlined I don’t really have time for new things. I hardly have time for Law and Order. Everything else in my life is scheduled so I can do work. I realized a couple days ago that I don’t really want anything for the holidays. I wouldn’t be able to enjoy anything extra in my life, it would be another distraction. I work 3-4 hours a day on composition. Classes in the morning. DJing once a month. Tuesdays and Thursdays are reserved for my escape- Ultimate. Otherwise, I feel like a nameless, faceless machine- I spend most of my day keeping to myself, ignoring people, watching faces, glued to my clipboard or powerbook, looking, wishing I could spend more time writing music, wondering if I’ll leave this town nameless and faceless. If I don’t write good music, I fail. There’s no other point for me being here. But sometimes I could put that on hold for a moment to enjoy.